I feel like I am about to burst
I have tried I really did We went out as a family a lot but that's just it My feelings are still the same I want out At first I was feeling a bit guilty but now I just don't anymore Because she deserves more than a messy home an unhappy mother an confusing parent relationship. I love her too much to do that to her. I think recently he saw my salary slip. So he went back to his old ways. I couldn't care less I hope Allah shows me the way. But I am scared too Scared that I couldn't give her what she deserves. But Allah know best. I am so attracted to hard working men right now Its confusing because I do believe they are just lucky. But usually it gets some time to overcome this attraction. Because all I want is for me to love myself. And I really don't like myself right now. Funny thing is he kept on saying he loves me But doesn't provide me a sense of security To myself to where I live I used to worry what I would need to eat Now I don't But still I try For ...