Since the last post have been busy going through a few interviews I pray and pray hoping I land a job soon Because I can't take it anymore I've been crying myself to sleep Imagining my life not within marriage life Going places with my daughter Having fun Not caring what people would say about me Praying that we have a peaceful divorce I didn't tell him anything about the interviews Because he usually would try to pry and he would always kill the vibe by asking an update I am here nervous already and there he is keep budging He is trying to be nice Yesterday he gave me RM50 for expenses I wanted to laugh Because that is still my value to him After all the promises he made to me As I wife I want him to change But as a person, I don't want him too because I feel like it would be easier excuse for me to get out Was I not grateful enough? Was I not helping enough? in the end I would keep on blaming myself for things I can't control my heart is bursting now I so want o...