Taited Soul

 I feel dizzy suddenly I hope it not that serious Having a red eye again at my right side The doctor couldnt see the problem I usually have this when I was too stressed Now hearing his snores makes me want to punch him To my daughter I love you so much You mean the world to me I try to be a better mother to you everyday I hope your future is better than mine I wish i can hug and kiss you always I love you so so so much ....... I tried looking for jobs these days I hope someday it would be fruitful He doesnt seem to know the boundary now Like he let her get her way Yesterday he called at 11pm to say hi A stupid decision considering she nearly fell asleep around that time After spending time with friends he seems to forget the routine 🙄 She kept crying for 2 hours yesterday I guess she was upset about something The other day he wore his briefs in  front of her when i clearly said again and again to not do that as she is a girl and to be more mindful of boundaries His ignorant s...

 Since a month ago I cleaned up the house And now it is a mess again Her clothes are all not in order and he dares to ask me to take out all the old ones when I had already told him that I have arrange on the side. He didnt argue with me on this because he knows this and had the audacity to demand it from me. I will do it later once she has had enough clothes. So far things have been normal Yet i still feel the same He tries i know He did almost always says love you at the end of a text but i dont feel like saying it He did once told me upfront but i still dont have the heart to say it I dont want to say it if i dont mean it Ive told him this Right now i am in the toilet He is outside with her, just coming back from his outstation. I feel free when he isnt home Like i could be myself and go anywhere with her freely It made it easier she doeant miss him so much I did reminisce our memories before But the thing is, those happened before marriage and only a year While we have been mar...

Its been a good time passing by But i do get annoyed with his ignorance And i do feel a bit sad when i think how she wants to play with him So far i feel helpness in diciplining her because he never cooperates. She lets her have her way and when she doesnt listen to him he scolds her insteads of guiding her. It like he wants an easy way out of everything. I try to endure by making new goals and hobbies. I try and try again. One step at a time. I notice he sometimes wanted to touch me but i always brush it off. Why? Because i dont feel like it anymore. Its like he want to be in my personal space without even talking to me about it, about us. Like nothing happened.  But it did. And it was real for me. I dont feel attracted to him anymore, not like i used to. I used like his smell, his toes and feet. I thought it was cute. But it doesnt anymore. I tried. I look at it everynight. But still it doesnt. I always feel glad whenevr we goes out to work. I feel free. Like i could be myself. C...