Annoyed

 I didnt have time to post yesterday

Because we went to outside to get some air

I was annoyed yesterday

Having him suddenly asking about my gay friend

Which i didnt remember telling him about it

Maybe he looked through my phone

But still

He was upset i was angry

I was upset because he brought it up

When he just wanted to talk about a gay officemate

I told him that doesnt need to bring up my friend

Then

He went on and on

Saying is he a bad person just for asking

Questioning someones sexuality

I just had it with all the excuses

In the end its like i am the one who is overeacting

Then he keeps playing the 'i miss old times sake'

I got even madder

Because remembering those times makes me feel stupid

.......

Today

He keeps on asking again

'Are you okay?'

Up to the forth or fifth time i just had it

I berated him 'why are you asking'

And he can only say ' Saje'

Then making that sad face

........

I dont feel like i have privacy anymore

I feel like i made a mistake telling him i told friends about how i feel

But at the same time i dont

Because at least i know i do have friends that i truat to talk too

........

I am a bit tired to cook

But i worry because usually when at the end of the month

We will be tight

And he will ask money from me

Truly it is his money

But i too have spent most of mine for this family

So now i am holding it bit by bit

........

Lets just see