As i watch you sleep

I dont know how i feel watching you sleep

She was so happy sitting with you before she slept

My heart was happy seeing her happy

But i cant look at you

Afraid you will see 

I didnt want to smile at you

......


I prayed now more than ever

I want only whats best for her

But my heart, it feels like bursting with emotion

Do i still love you

Do i still care

I just want to keep the peace between us

........


I looked back at our journey

And i remember all the good that youve done to me

To us

But still

We are here

Again...

........


Am i the problem?

Why am i always the problem?

Did u read that email

Did u know how i feel

Why didnt you say anything?


........

..............


I thougt again about him

And truly i am afraid

If in any case

I will never be a good wife

Maybe a good mother

A good friend

Sister maybe

Daughter maybe

But not a wife

Am i strong enough

Why do i have to always be strong?

....

........

......

I tried to hide the disgust

I tried to hide my annoyance

...........

Ya Allah, please give me strength and guidance


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