Dizzy

 I feel dizzy suddenly

I hope it not that serious

Having a red eye again at my right side

The doctor couldnt see the problem

I usually have this when I was too stressed

Now hearing his snores makes me want to punch him

To my daughter

I love you so much

You mean the world to me

I try to be a better mother to you everyday

I hope your future is better than mine

I wish i can hug and kiss you always

I love you so so so much

.......

I tried looking for jobs these days

I hope someday it would be fruitful

He doesnt seem to know the boundary now

Like he let her get her way

Yesterday he called at 11pm to say hi

A stupid decision considering she nearly fell asleep around that time

After spending time with friends he seems to forget the routine 🙄

She kept crying for 2 hours yesterday

I guess she was upset about something

The other day he wore his briefs in  front of her when i clearly said again and again to not do that as she is a girl and to be more mindful of boundaries

His ignorant self cant seem to listen

The other day he also bossed me around to clean up any unused clothes of her when i already told him i already seperated it earlier. Bit being ignorantly he mixed up every laundry day.

He seems to be buying things without me knowing now. Seems to have more money but whenever i bring it up he would deny it. 

I hope things favor my way too though

I am sick of feeling this helpless 

But i have to trust Allah

I hope soon

I hope my eye will get better

Help me

I love you my daughter

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