Maybe all I wanted wasnt you

 I thought about it today

Why did I imagine myself with you

For all the times that we could have happened

Why now?

Maybe because i saw her appreciation post of you

How youve grown and developed

How now I understood the struggles

How now I appreciate it more than i wanted back then

That time you confessed we were young

Too young

And i was lost

And my parents hated yours

I knew it wouldnt work

But now seeing the success youve made

I somehow imagine

What would it be like just me and you

Maybe because i got tired of my life now

Or maybe i just feel like my efforts are in vain

Or maybe im just fed up with everything

And wanted something new

But

I will never trade her for anything

Anyone

Not even you

Hers is more important than me

Even if somehow our paths will cross

I just hope it would be under the best circumstances

And not just a mere unfortunate chance

I should let you go

Because now we are going nowhere

I shall bury this dream this feeling

Because i will never know the future is with you

I know my future now

And here is where i am supposed to be

But thank you

Thank you so much for making me feel so accepted

When i couldnt even accept myself..

If my words were harsh

It was because i didnt know myself

I wished you would have said something when we met before

But you didnt

So now here we are

Smiling our little smile

Thinking of all the what ifs

But Allah knows best

And i wish you all the best

Goodnight MSH


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