Change

A friend told me that people will change if they continue the habit for 40 days.

Its been 24 days

And its back again

The snoring

The not reading of quran like promised

The 'imagination' that he wakes up and night and do work

And maybe the same i have to wake him up everynight to pray

Like i feel so tied up for praying right now

Because his pace is too fast for me

Like i cant finish my fatihah or rukuk or sujud or tahiyat like i used too because i had to follow.his lead

Moreover, sometimes he forgets and skips a rakaat or something

And the other day he did and he told me i should have said Subhanallah

And i am like ??????????

Now i have to do that too?????

But the counselor said that i should encourage good behavior if i want it to last

But i am sick of babying a man

Am i sick of telling the same person the same thing almost always

And he is like oblivious

Why does he expect me to treat him like a king when he treats me like a maid

Like it is common sense that i get tired of cooking 3 times a day

And suddenly he cares of what i want to eat when i dont join him?

Do i care now?

Or is this just pushing me towards something?

Not angry

Just urgh annoyed