Salam. This isn’t anger—it’s clarity. And I’ve stayed silent long enough, but you need to hear this. You came into my life with promises—love, commitment, marriage. You called me a petunjuk, and I believed you, because I’d admired you for so long. But slowly, what began with those words became a quiet withdrawal. Our moments became brief, rushed—like my time and heart were only worth convenience. What hurt most wasn’t just the silence. It was how you showed up for my body, but not for my emotions. That’s not love. That’s not kindness. And it’s not the man I thought you were. I gave you honesty, effort, and belief. I received inconsistency, silence, and confusion. You said your door was always open—but you never built a space where I felt safe to stay. I still wish you peace. I respect your intention to turn over a new leaf. But know this: real change is seen, not spoken. If you truly cared, you wouldn’t have treated me like something temporary. I chose you despite your past and y...
I dont know how i feel watching you sleep She was so happy sitting with you before she slept My heart was happy seeing her happy But i cant look at you Afraid you will see I didnt want to smile at you ...... I prayed now more than ever I want only whats best for her But my heart, it feels like bursting with emotion Do i still love you Do i still care I just want to keep the peace between us ........ I looked back at our journey And i remember all the good that youve done to me To us But still We are here Again... ........ Am i the problem? Why am i always the problem? Did u read that email Did u know how i feel Why didnt you say anything? ........ .............. I thougt again about him And truly i am afraid If in any case I will never be a good wife Maybe a good mother A good friend Sister maybe Daughter maybe But not a wife Am i strong enough Why do i have to always be strong? .... ........ ...... I tried to hide the disgust I tried to hide my annoyance ........... Ya Allah, ple...
I didnt have time to post yesterday Because we went to outside to get some air I was annoyed yesterday Having him suddenly asking about my gay friend Which i didnt remember telling him about it Maybe he looked through my phone But still He was upset i was angry I was upset because he brought it up When he just wanted to talk about a gay officemate I told him that doesnt need to bring up my friend Then He went on and on Saying is he a bad person just for asking Questioning someones sexuality I just had it with all the excuses In the end its like i am the one who is overeacting Then he keeps playing the 'i miss old times sake' I got even madder Because remembering those times makes me feel stupid ....... Today He keeps on asking again 'Are you okay?' Up to the forth or fifth time i just had it I berated him 'why are you asking' And he can only say ' Saje' Then making that sad face ........ I dont feel like i have privacy anymore I feel like i made a mista...
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