The Aftermath

 Its 3 am

And i woke up finally

Yesterday ive talked to some friends

And they understand

But he didnt

Ke keep on asking

Pushing

To remember those times

We held on to each other

And in the end

I got angry

But i kept my cool

Blaming it on myself

.......

But for how long

How long i have to be sorry for it

How long do i have to always take the blame

I too need to be honest with myself

Because that is all i have

......

I am sad that i made him feel this way

But i have to be myself

I promised

........

I heard him

When he thought i was asleep

He said he loved me

Missed me

Wanted me to want him like before

He couldnt live without me

But i froze

I let him say everything

Let him touch my hair

And i pretended

If i still feel it

Why didnt i wake up?

Why didnt i want too?

Why did i feel like wanting to kick him instead?

Because of the snoring?

........

I told him i never asked for this

He kept pushing my buttons

Saying he wont let anybody else take care of her

I told him i never said i would leave

What made me loved him before?

Do i remember going here and there?

All those question i told the same

Would u want me to lie?

Because i could

......

He is trying to push my buttons

And i am trying to keep my cool

For her

For her sake

Allah please guide me

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