The truth

 I told him the truth yesterday

And he was upset

Very upset

He cried so hard

Punching walls

And i was left with her

Trying hard not to cry....


When he came down there were still visible tears

Him saying to her to be a strong girl

I told him that i would never take her from him

I made up my mind yesterday night

But he keep on insisting what should be done

All i could say was i dont know..


I never intended to hurt him

But i have to say it

Because he wanted to hug me

And i dont

He asked dont i love him

I told him, i just feel nothing....


I told him everything

I told him i tried

I told him i am sorry 

While our baby watch us cry

Her face shows curiosity

Looking back and forth on both of us..


He didnt blame me

He even said he will give everything

Everything i asked just to make me.happy

To let go

But i said i never want her to loose him

Not with her keep on asking for him every morning and night

I cant take that away from her

I just couldnt


He asked me to give him a chance

To make it right

That he wont push me

But i asked what if i dont

Even till then

He said to try out first

Than see it from there


I nearly fainted a few times by telling everything

As he held me scared i might so

He said he never knew it was that serious

Because in his heart was just us

I said i never intended for this to happened

Not once

But i am tired of everything

Anything of him


I confessed all

And he accepted

He took his blame 

And ask me to try


I said ok

For the sake of our daughter

Thank you for no pressure


So here i am

Nursing a sleepless baby

Who might have be scarred

Because she saw us crying

And too young to ask why

I am sorry baby

I try not to be selfish

But i am human

And i am not perfect

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