Short peace

His grandpa passed away the other day so i got the house for myself for 2 nights

It was a bless for me
I get to be myself
I get to clean

Overall I am being okay

Truthfully I am planning something for the future
On how what when
But honestly he isnt in it
Why
Maybe i juat dont feel like this relationship is changing
Or maybe what i felt isnt going to change about him

I just hope i could have a nice job to support me and her
So i wont be dependant on him
I just got to find his salary is 4.1k
Can you imagine living in the same house but not knowing
Trust but getting used up till i am dry
And funny thing ia he tends to 'forget' that he burrowed from me
Like the other day
This month he paid for last month burrowed money
Other previous months i am still not sure

I cleaned up the house today because i was so sick and tires of watching the house get dirtier 
Waiting for him to do it as he promised is like a waste of my time
Also its not healthy for her
I didnt clean up his toilet
His pee was in it
I already gave him a lot of cleaning kit but still he manages to give excuses like no rubber pipe etc.
He could have just burrowed it from below for awhile.
But excuses right?
I am going to paste pictures here so that when in future it get dirty again i will know how much time i need to antisipate this behaviour.








I already vacummed and mopped the floor as well.
A bit tiring but worth it.
I dont want her to think that its normal to live in a pigsty.
Messy is ok but dirty is not.
Right now he is just being dirty for his laziness.

I dont know when will i ever have this chance again.


Right now i am just doing what i can in the house and not be a bitch about things he didnt do. 
Because i feel like it isnt worth it anymore.
I wont demand it anymore but only when it is normalize will i make a fuss
Because like i said i dont want her to think its ok to be a dirty person.
So now i have something to look forward too and i want to manifest it as much as i can.
InsyAllah it will bring a better further for both of us.

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