To talk or not

I decided not to talk about it with him

Because I think I can handle it

And I did

But that doesnt make me escape to feel annoyed about it

Like a few days ago he told me he has no money anymore, again.

No money to buy groceries and diapers.

I had to use my money to buy diapers.

Even so, he told me of his plan

And of how much he will give me afterwards.

I am not sure how to trust him on it

But lets just see.

I went back and look at MSH

And I am glad I acknowledge what is it that made me feel the way I feel

It is not the person

It is the attitude

How one carries his life

Improvement

Now him, even so now, complaining about work, again.

I dont know what to say anymore.

He has improve on playing with her

But has to work on obedience

He doesnt want to be stern

But he has too

Yesterday I went for my 2nd dose of vaccination.

I went by my old place

I nearly cried, especially it was raining

How I lived all alone

How we both dated nearby

How it doesnt feel that way anymore

Those good feelings comes from memory

And not now

I dont see him doing more to attract me like before

And I too

I hope Allah can forgive my sins

And I hope Allah will show me the way

Also to my friends that are lost

I can get through this

I hope it all turns well in the end

For the sake of her

I love her so much


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