Clarifying things

 Yes he did took my daughters tabung haji money

After meraculous and constant nagging

He finally paid it back with his bonus

The bonus that he promised to buy back my gold neckless and bracelate

But he still didnt



I checked conversationa with hos old number

He did promise to settle these this year

Jokes on me then


I still havent had a job yet

Some offered me to try again with their recommendation

But I still want to pave my own path

Hopefully InsyAllah soon


I am currently trying to be nice with him

Because frankly I am tired


I blind my eyes and become deaf with his faulta because I just cant do anything from this point then just ride the wave


He does have 2 credit cards


I thought he gave the spare to his parents but he didnt

Because when i had to buy something he gave me the maybank cc...but because we were back late and he wanted to pay for McDonalds, i saw he pull out his Bank Muamalat card


Its funny that he gave me money this month. RM200. That is my value. Earlier in our wedding he promised me an amount of RM300 based on something excessed from his claims. Till now the amount still remained the same. For raya even.


I am not complaining. 


But dont u see. Things dont add up.


He is like promoting to be a loving and tak kedekut husband...but still treats me the same...


I have never asked him for money before


But now i do


If he ask me to buy dinner or anything


I will ask for his money


Then suddenly he would just buy it himself


This recent raya he borrowed money from me. RM150 for homestay. Its so funny because he already has his bonus and also knows that he want to stay in a homestay but still cant prepare enough money?????



And funny enough i have to beg that money back


Its just tiring.


He is curently like trying to finish of all my money and make me depend 100% on him.


I dont want to be in that situation again.


I want to love myself.


I want to be free.


Ya Allah help me.

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